A note from mom to be

Written Nov 2015:

To my sweet, sweet baby-
I have been thinking about all the things I want to say to you and it has taken me what seems like a really long time to get up the courage. You are a blessing from God. You are wanted and already so loved. We knew we would eventually get you, but we didn't know how easy or hard it might be. For a while, we were afraid that it was going to take a lot of money and work to get you. And then on July 30, 2014, I found out I was pregnant with you. I was really shocked! Your daddy was also really shocked! But since that day, we have both been so excited to meet you and have you in our lives.

We will find out on November 20whether you are a boy or girl. Since the day I found out I was pregnant, I have been calling you "he" whenever I talk about you.  So if you're girl, sorry about that! Either way we will be thrilled.

I have been thinking about all the things I want for you and your life. I hope you get your daddy's kindness and his pretty smile. I hope you get his thick hair. I hope you get my drive and determination, but I'm really feisty, so that kind of scares me. Your daddy and I both are tall, with blue/green eyes, and we're both pretty smart. So I think you will get those qualities from the both of us.
Most of all, I can't wait to see what kind of personality you will have and all the unique things that make you YOU!

I hope that we will be good parents. I know that we will make mistakes, but I hope you know that everything we ever do will be because we love you and want the best for you.

I am 18 weeks pregnant now, so I am halfway there to meeting you. Right now you are still tiny, but very active! I love to see you on the ultrasounds I do at work. I can see your little heart beating away and how you kick your arms and legs. You are always moving! You don't like it when I push on you with the ultrasound probe. You kick and flail and move to try to get away from it. See, you are already feisty! I can't feel you moving yet, but I know soon I will. Your daddy loves to see the recordings I do of you. I think he is a little jealous because he can't see it live when I actually do it ;)

Your grandparents are also very excited to meet you. We are all excited to find out if you are a boy or a girl. We have a boy name picked out, but we are clueless as to what we will name you if you are a girl.

I am always praying for you, praying that you're healthy and perfect. I'm not too worried though, because I know that God wants you here and that he will keep you safe.

There are a million things I want to say to you. There are so many thoughts but I have about you, but it would take all day to list them all and I would never be finished. Kind of like how I will never be finished loving you. I never knew I could love someone I had never met so much. You have already taught me something and you're only 5 1/2 inches long. ;) stay safe in my belly and I will see you in April.

Love,
Mommy